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The Seeds that Grow

by Laura Hegfield




 






My once cultivated garden has been overtaken by wildflowers. Some days this upsets me. I had worked hard to plant flowers of my choosing, just so. Illness over the past several years has made working in the garden physically impossible for me and my husband has no time to tend it. I was able to take a little walk about the yard the other day, because it was cool enough to be in the sun, (heat is not the friend of people with MS it wreaks havoc on neurological functioning). To my surprise and delight, I fell in love with the graceful arcs the abundant wildflowers made as they performed an exquisite ballet in the gentle September breeze. I realized something of great importance; it is not always the seeds we sow and blossom that bring us the most contentment, sometimes it is the seeds that grow without invitation that open our hearts to satisfaction and joy. Life is unfolding in its own time, in its own way. It is beautiful and gratifying to bear witness, to release our desire to control the things we cannot, and offer up a simple prayer —Thank You.


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Laura Hegfield is a mother, wife, visual artist, writer, singer-songwriter and experiential educator combining art, yoga, meditation and Jewish spirituality. She is also a Creativity Coach, SoulCollage®  facilitator and Spiritual Director. Throughout the past 11 years of child rearing, teaching, facilitating and eventually coaching and spiritual direction, she has also been ill with a wide variety of symptoms receiving several different diagnoses. On September 3, 2009 after an emergency room visit, she was finally diagnosed with RRMS (relapsing remitting ms). While no longer able to work outside her home, she continues to be engaged in the world through blogging regularly and offering individual services via the Internet and phone conferencing. As challenging as living with a chronic, disabling disease is she feels that in many ways, MS has expanded her heart, mind, soul and appreciation for all the things her body IS able to do.  “It seems that as the neural connections in my central nervous system decrease, my compassion toward my own lived experience and toward all beings increases. For this I am deeply grateful.”
 


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Danielle
09/28/2011 12:35am

Perfect ; ) God bless you on your healing journey! Namaste

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John
09/28/2011 6:26am

So true Laura, we are led to believe that if it is "wild" then it is not attractive yet they all have their own natural beauty. Great post!

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Linda
09/30/2011 10:24pm

The last line of your lovely sharing here brings the serenity prayer to mind, dear Laura - may it be so for you.

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Laura, NH, USA link
10/01/2011 10:26pm

Thank you friends for your kind words. May each of you be blessed with beautiful surprises blossoming all around you and deep within.

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Cindy Hively
10/02/2011 12:47am

Hi Laura, you have given me a few things to think about. I too (last Summer) would become so angry when I looked at my floral gardens I had worked so hard with over years and saw white rocks slowly disapearing and flowers I loved as well. I too am unable to spend much time in the sun and the physical work required to tend, nourish and weed my garden was too much for me. This summer my husband cleared it out and made me a reflection garden with a fountain. I passed by the other day and caught a flower coming up through the lava rock. I realized it was a weed but for some reason I connected with it's beauty. I told myself I will leave it be for now and enjoy. Thank you Laura for always inspiring us to look through an open heart. Hope you are well!xo

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Kaveri
10/02/2011 12:03pm

'sometimes it is the seeds that grow without invitation that open our hearts to satisfaction and joy'

Hi Metaphor Queen! The invited and uninvited guests in your garden, your life bow to your royal heart.

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Cheryl Wright link
10/11/2011 5:17pm

"...it is not always the seeds we sow and blossom that bring us the most contentment, sometimes it is the seeds that grow without invitation that open our hearts to satisfaction and joy."

Thank you for timely reminder. In all our striving to plan, to do, to achieve and success, all worthy of course, we miss and often dismiss the unexpected, the uninvited. Thank you for reminding me to not be so narrow minded and so intent on tunnel vision, that I miss or dismiss the unexpected joys.

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